Where have I been? Well, I’m still here and I’m back as a mommy! Becoming a mom hasn’t been an easy road for me. It was actually very scary at the end of my pregnancy as I became quite sick. So what happened and how is everything now?
It was no secret that I didn’t feel my best throughout the pregnancy. I felt nauseas all the time, nope that didn’t stop after the first trimester for me, and my energy level was extremely low. Despite of the physical discomfort I was truly happy and grateful to be pregnant. I loved preparing my life and everyone in it for our baby boy to arrive.
Little did I know that our little fighter would have to come a lot earlier than anticipated. At thirty-two weeks I was diagnosed and hospitalized with pre-eclampsia. It meant that my blood pressure was suddenly dangerously high which caused organs such as my kidneys to no longer function as they should.
I can give you a whole list of unpleasant symptoms which I suffered from, but I’ll spare you the details. You can just say that I was very sick and got sicker each day. Luckily my baby boy was doing just fine in my belly. Unluckily I got too sick for him to stay there and so the doctors said I had to be induced, this was six weeks prior to my due date.
And then there was our baby boy Logan! Such a trooper right from the start. Since he arrived way too early he needed special medication to help him breath. He was in the hospital a bit over three weeks and it was an emotional rollercoaster, but he was strong and got stronger every day. Now he’s been home for a while and keeps on showing us what a tough little boy he is.
So that’s the reason I haven’t been blogging. I first of all physically couldn’t do it and then was also emotionally not ready to share our story. I still have to find a way how to process everything that happened, because for a long time we were just in a survival mode, but we’ll get there. I must say that my husband has been the absolute best husband he could’ve been. I admire how calm he stayed through everything and how much love he’s given us. I couldn’t have done this without his love and support.
We’ve also had so much support from friends and family. When you’re going through a difficult time you get to see who’s really there for you. It’s a cliche but it’s true. And I say difficult time, because it was, but at the same time it was also beautiful. We got to meet our son and hold him and kiss him and watch him grow bigger.
And what’s next? Well I can’t promise a weekly blog, but writing is still something I enjoy, so I’ll do my best. However my priorities shifted and my top priority is to focus on my family and on my health and everything else will come after that.
So see you soon hopefully!